Like Mount Fucking Vesuvius - it feels like somethin's gunna blow! Pressure mounting... pain fear pain anger pain uncertainty pain frustration pain fury pain. I am in big-biig pain today, the older the day gets, the more the pain is building. the fear, the isolation and the rage is crankin' up the heat. Starting round 2 of steroids today, is turning the burner up to volcanic levels. Fists balled up at my temples crying and screaming, scaring the hell out of the cats - fury! I hate the way I feel. i.fuckin.hate.it! An unfinished project - is giving me some focus and diversion at least momentarily. Focused-diverted all at the same time. A scary place.